11-29-03 - 00:26
I think it's time to let it hang out
this is anonymous, right?
I saw the HUGEST penis on a man EVER tonight. He was 64 and there was a catheter sticking out of it, but it was huge.
huge
Why do I always have to take care of stinky people? And wipe their asses? Tonight it was a guy who had done way too many drugs, drank too much alcohol and went way too much crazy. He was crapping everywhere. He painted with it.
The smell you can not imagine.
His teeth were rotting out of his head.
He was emaciated. He looked like pictures of children I have seen from third world countries. Everything on his was gaunt and saggy, except his abdomen which was like me at nine + months pregnant. Enormous. It's a Hepatitis stomach.
He had sores all over him. Those were the HIV sores. Kaposi's sarcoma.
He slurred his speech. He couldn't take a deep breath. He kept mixing up his words because of the swelling on his brain from his hepatitis.
And the track marks on his arms like battle scars.
I tried to imagine him young and thrill-seeking, fiendishly handsome. The girls maybe attracted to him because he was always a little hard to access. Maybe he liked to wear white t-shirts and roll his cigs in the sleeve.
And then one day he did a little too much experimenting.
I can't even imagine it. The man was filth. Fifty + years of life and it was all down the toilet.
I really am not broken up about it. This is only one of four patients I had on one night of my long life.
It happens, what do you want me to do about it?
