02-25-04 - 22:51
For lent I gave up Ash Wednesday Mass and eating healthy and praying.
Ha ha.
That would be funny, if I was an in-yo-face angry ex-Catholic, but alas. I am nothing of the sort.
I missed Mass tonight because I was working an easy-money four-hour shift at the hospital.
IF you call easy money wiping asses, telling a woman her is going to die today or tomorrow, pushing IV medications that sedate, racing around doing 100 things at once, taking doctors orders and trying not to screw it all up while smiling, being attentive and getting it all done within 4 hours and charting it ALL.
sure, easy my ass.
I think the whole point of early Easter promos at stores is to make my ass fatter. I swear those robin eggs are made from some secret sinful concoction like crack cocaine. I can't eat just twenty.
UGH. I'm going to bed with a stomach ache. again.
Last year on Ash Wednesday a dear friend of our family who is the religious education director at our church brought Ashes to me and blessed me in prayer. Was that the intervention that saved me? The next day I was extubated.
I must make a more valiant effort to go to Church and serve. I have nothing that I can throw in God's face and say "Why the hell should I be thankful for this?"
People of lesser lives are ten times as thankful and pious as I.
Oh faulted conscience!
