08-04-04 - 22:30
lunatic tock Am I done
with the crises
and the depressing
and the unimaginable horror
in a woman's life?
Come on, am I done?????
I sure fucking hope so.
Tonight I crawl out of my skin.
Tomorrow melt into day
laugh and love
and imagine a time where there isn't time to pass
it just exists in present
and now
and here
and I don't need to wait
I am so happy I am running around my house sweating
chasing my cats
and my husband thinks am I drunk?
Of course not!
I am mad!
Ha ha!
I would rather be mad
than tragic
lying in a pool of my own tears
and bleeding my thoughts
with leeches from God
The Bible is not a dictionary for grief or a map for life
if you can't read Aramaic
Humdee dum
I fancy myself gone again
and gone
and gone
